So use to losing you don't know when you've won.

Some people are so use to losing they don't know when they've won.

Once in my lifetime I had the opportunity to connect with a really great guy. A guy who understood I was as equally as great; but because we feared things were too good to be true we ruined things before anything even gotten started.It made me realize how important it was for me to jump over the hurdle of hurt and let go off all my insecurities. I realized without me breaking free of those things that kept me bound I would continue to live a life that would hinder me from growth. I knew I couldn't spend the rest of my life living this way.

Too good to be true became my worse nightmare. The constant smiles became continuous nights of tears. Tears because I feared I needed to let him go. Once I was in a place where I felt like I was winning. I imagined everything to work out perfectly. My fairytale manipulated itself into reality and everything no longer seemed so sweet. Loving him came easy, the desire to be with him never left; but I was losing! Slowly, with every filthy conversation I understood what it meant to lose yourself.I wasn't the only one losing -we both were. Losing trust, losing interest, losing respect, losing love for one another. Disrespect began to settle and no matter the magnitude of love I had for him I knew I had to love myself more. He knew it.

I feared that I would lose him forever; but instead of letting go I held on tighter! Eventually I realized I needed to loosen my grip -when I did he slipped right through my fingers. I knew that no matter what transpired I had lost him and I'd never get him back; I tried.I tried for him; not for me. I thought I had lost -come to find out, I was winning. Winning the opportunity to reflect, winning the opportunity to love myself again. It wasn't until I allowed myself to let go of him that I had gained the opportunity to get a hold onto me... I found me!Letting go of someone you love is hard; sometimes it's the hardest thing you can do. Just because it's hard doesn't mean it won't be worth it.

When I thought I was losing God revealed to me the importance of self love...he made me understand my worth and for that, I'm grateful I let go!When the seasons change so do the colors of the leaves on the trees. Eventually the leaves will fall from the tree and when it's warmer new leaves will grow back. Think of those lost lives like leaves.

When the seasons (life's circumstances, both challenging and easy) begin to flourish some leaves are strong enough to withstand the toughest winds and storms, while others will break free and leave. They may have left but never forget about that tree. You are a tree, strong and well planted. Heavily rooted in your purpose! The resilience a tree has is the same that's within you. Be careful not to lose focus of who and what you are because you love someone new. New leaves grow and flowers bloom on trees all the time it doesn't mean because they're nice that they're going to stay. Be YOU! Love YOU!

Love,

ChelCy