Be Free

Lately I've been struggling with my flesh. It's hard to admit when you've done some things wrong. Sometimes we have a tendency of covering things up we don't want to be exposed; but it's the exposure to the truth that helps you to grow. You can't get rid of demons until you confront them. Just like you can't get over an offense until you confront it and make peace with what's bothering you. They say "if you knew better you'd do better"....what if I said I knew better but I chose to do it anyway? Does that make me a bad person? Does it make me less of a Christian because I chose to do what my flesh wanted to do, instead of following my heart? No it doesn't. It makes me human. Being human is no excuse to cover up my wrong doings -it just means I make mistakes. Sometimes I, like you, may get the urge to do something I use to do because I miss the pleasure or thrill I got by doing whatever it was I used to do. Leading by example is one of the hardest things I've accepted when it's come to my walk. Not because I can't do it -I have; but the restraint you feel when being that person people are watching makes me feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells. Why? Judgment. Judgement by so called Christians and by everyone else. You gain confidence in Christ; but what about the fear of losing yourself? I'm beginning to understand that it's no longer me who I'm losing, I'm losing who I was to develop into who I'm destined to be. No matter how far I try to run from it. Every time I look myself in the mirror I see someone different. I talk differently, my walk is different. I think I'm afraid of change... It's okay to be afraid. Just don't let fear own you. You can't walk in fear and in faith -choose your position! I choose faith! You can't live in sin and front like you're a saint -choose your walk! I chose to be a saint! So what now? There's some things you need to let go of: Your past mistakes Your past relationships The old you! I never cared what people thought of me until I began to journey on my walk. People began to treat me differently. When I came around they began to act differently. I see now that they were just showing me how much they respected me and my stance. A person who truly cares about you will respect your religious views and values without renting you to put yourself in a position that will compromise your morals or your witness. Keep the people who genuinely care about you in your corner and let the rest of the suckers go! They may seem sweet but at the end of the day, too much sugar will leave you with cavities. No matter how much you care about people sometimes what's best for you is you letting them go. Elevation requires separation, you can't bring everyone with you to your next level. I know you've messed up. You may have even done a few things you regret. Look at it like this, God allowed you to be put in a position to where you had to test your strength and you chose to fall into your weakness. It's okay, he spared you. You're here today so make the change now! If you've sinned repent and ask for forgiveness; but only with a pure heart. He will remember your sins no more, so put it out there, say your peace, and let it go! To stop sinning it takes conviction. You have to be so compelled to do right that wrong is just too far off the deep end for you to ever allow yourself to get tangled into those webs. Saying goodbye to who you were is refreshing once you understand the grace God has on your life. Today I choose to stop running and embrace the woman in becoming! The old me is dead. Goodbye! Go on Girl! It takes a strong person to let go of things they've been accustomed to. Give yourself a pat on the back and say you can do this! You got this! Love, ChelCy